Lone Wolf
Family makes me twitchy, and I am always much happier when I'm not talking to them, with the exception of my wife, and most of the time, her Sister and Fiance. I just came off a weekend of enforced family because my In-Laws where over all weekend, and I felt as though my space were completely violated. I couldn't flee the house fast enough this morning.
Today is my step-brother's birthday and I haven't spoken to him in 5 years, even though we were related for 20+ years. He has a wife and child I haven't met, but I still think he's a douche bag for not standing up to his mother and agreeing to be my Best Man. Instead he sided with her and told me that he agreed that I may not be my father's son.
I grew up alone. My sister was being busy going out and having fun, as did my mom. My father, frustrated by my lack of discipline, wanted as little to do with me as possible, and spent the time happily with his new nuclear unit, not 3 miles from my house (but another world).
Now as an adult (38), I dislike being around my sister-mom nuclear unit. I don't know how to relate. I've grown up my own person, my sister is a sheep with nary a thought in her head about the world outside of her life, and my mom is a narcissistic nut job. I love them both very much, but enjoy the moment of departure much more than the visit itself.
The Family Man is a face of the Avatar that I don't experience. I don't want children and can hardly stand the family that I do have. Other than my wife, the idea of family evokes Cold Iron within me that no medication is able to thaw.
However much I want to flee the various families in my life. I just informed my Father In Law today that should Bird Flu hit our shores, I am making a beeline for his rural farm. And the result is that an awareness has hit me that I think of family for using, and to be honest, am not much of a Family Giver myself.
Today is my step-brother's birthday and I haven't spoken to him in 5 years, even though we were related for 20+ years. He has a wife and child I haven't met, but I still think he's a douche bag for not standing up to his mother and agreeing to be my Best Man. Instead he sided with her and told me that he agreed that I may not be my father's son.
I grew up alone. My sister was being busy going out and having fun, as did my mom. My father, frustrated by my lack of discipline, wanted as little to do with me as possible, and spent the time happily with his new nuclear unit, not 3 miles from my house (but another world).
Now as an adult (38), I dislike being around my sister-mom nuclear unit. I don't know how to relate. I've grown up my own person, my sister is a sheep with nary a thought in her head about the world outside of her life, and my mom is a narcissistic nut job. I love them both very much, but enjoy the moment of departure much more than the visit itself.
The Family Man is a face of the Avatar that I don't experience. I don't want children and can hardly stand the family that I do have. Other than my wife, the idea of family evokes Cold Iron within me that no medication is able to thaw.
However much I want to flee the various families in my life. I just informed my Father In Law today that should Bird Flu hit our shores, I am making a beeline for his rural farm. And the result is that an awareness has hit me that I think of family for using, and to be honest, am not much of a Family Giver myself.
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