The Avatar of Grief - or She Took a Crap in My Heart

Last night my relationship with my lover of two years officially ended.

Actually, it ended three months ago when she started getting together with another guy. The guy who got her hooked on heroin, supplies her with it and shoots her up. She told him she had ended things with me months before. But I first learned that when I called her cell phone last night and he answered and told me about it (which she has since verified).

I invested so much of my life, energy and soul into her over the past year, and even more so in the past five months because I thought she was showing signs of needing help. But no amount of assistance will help a person who does not want to be helped. She told me our relationship had been the healthiest with any person in her entire life (that has been constantly filled with horrible ones). Apparently that is not what she wants.

And there is nothing I can do to get that energy back to stop the gaping void she left filled with shit.