Man-tra Revisited

Nearly a month ago I began a twice daily recitation of an affirmation of the Everyday Avatar variety. I can say that it is really affecting me, in that I am living closer along these lines. At this time, it seems that even the one's I'm not doing very well, do tend to set off alarms of discomfort in me, and I am actively working towards their practice. I read facing a mirror and looking myself in the eyes. Yesterday I was taking a nap when I had a death scare. These happen from time to time when I picture myself laying in a coffin surrounded by mourners, and I immediately kick into fight/flight, usually with a shout. I laughed at myself when I calmed down. "You get what you ask for," I said. And there was power to it. A brief awareness, that I need not be frightened. That I can do anything. Then it went away until wrote this. All in all though, it appears that reciting this seems to be aligning me towards the ideal I have of the Everyday Avatar. And I think other people notice it, but I'm not quite sure. More on this next month.

I have edited the first line and added the second line, but it seems to fit.

Today I am a god disguised as a man.

My own death rides my left shoulder to remind me of my mortality and all the things that go with awareness of a limited lifespan.

I am present in all of my interactions with the Big Outside.

I am attentive to my partner needs.

I am kind to children, animals and, yes family

I do no harm.

I take care of myself, physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.

I admit when I'm wrong. Even if it means getting in trouble.

I do the job in front of me, and complete to the best of my ability, what I set out to do.

I laugh at myself, and problably at you too. Sorry.

I do not take all of this (looks around) so seriously.

I remember that I am powerless over most things that piss me off, and it is only my interpretation of events, combined with my desires that that does the actual pissing.

I can be the person I want to be with a simple twist of mind, and lots of practice.

I will somehow fuck some of this up, and will do my best to walk the path tomorrow.

I take responsibility for my actions.

I love myself.